@ElvenRoyalAria posted on Mon Feb 17, over a year ago
As a kid I looked up to you,
Only thing was I never saw enough of you.
The last thing I said to you was I hated you,
I loved you and now it's too late to say to you.
Just didn't know what to do or how to deal with it,
Even now deep down I'm still livid.
To think, I used to blame me,
I wondered what I did to you to make you hate me.
I wasn't even 5, life's a journey and mine wasn't an easy ride,
You never even got to see me rhyme,
After all you were never kin to me,
Family is something that you've never been to me,
In fact making it harder for me to see my father was the only thing that you ever did for me.
I write songs, I can't listen to
Everything I have, I give to you
And every one of these lines I sing to you.
My job’s more like public service
My life just became yours to read and interpret.
If you heard it it’d come across a lot different at times
I throw fits when I read how they word things.
You've seen me smile
Now you’re gonna have to see me hurtin’
'cause pretending everything is alright when it ain’t, really isn’t working.
I just wished you would have reached out
I wish you would've been round when I'd been down.
I wish that you could see me now,
Wherever you are I really hope you found peace.
But know that if I ever have kids,
Unlike you I'll never let them be without me.
ain’t censoring myself for nobody
I’m the only thing I can be,
All that is good, all that is bad, all that is, me.